It's My Birthday and I'll Grow Up If I Want To
If you know me then you would know that I've been 27 for the last 4 years. It's not that aging has scared me, it's more so that 27 just FELT like a good age for me and I just wasn't ready to grow out of it . It felt like an age where you could be taken seriously but still have wild nights in Vegas without any excuses. 27 felt safe and warm and everyone went along with me never aging so hey, why not?!
Last year I wore a shirt with a cape for my birthday, held two babies at once, and ate this foot long sub because I WANTED TO!
This birthday is different though. Maybe it's because for the past 6 months I've been focused on a WAY more important Birth Day. Maybe it's because that Birth Day is only *just* around the corner. Or maybe it's because 31 just sounds as right as 27.
This year included A LOT of selfies - one on the way to get married, one with my beloved coffee, and of course - one with Mr. Cornelius!
The past year has been an EPIC one for me! I got married, I got pregnant, I created a beautiful life with one of the most amazing human beings I have ever met - actually two - the one I'm living and the one growing inside me! This upcoming year already seems epic and it hasn't even happened yet. I'm going to do one of the most magical and powerful things on the Planet - give birth. It's not to be downplayed so I'm not going to. I'm going to work really hard to venture deeper into my Postpartum Doula career because it's something I truly believe in. I'm going to try and provide solid and sound caregiving advice, via this blog, because it's something I'm good at and something I feel like I have to do. I get to be someone's mother.
This past year, I've really valued the people around me. I've got such amazing friends and I've been able to weed out the ones that weren't so amazing. I've really valued the experiences I've gotten to have instead of the *things* that I own. The past year, I also really got to be confident in the skin I'm in and now that skin has physically changed again, I've worked hard to once more be comfortable being ME! I've learned how to point out, with modesty AND confidence the things that I love about myself both in regards to my looks and personality (YES, I have a great nose AND a great laugh!)
I really love a good mirror and bathroom lighting, whether it be in Ohio, Little Tokyo, or at home to take a crazy selfie to send to the Hubs!
This past year things just changed and they changed for the better. Of course there were moments I wish wouldn't have happened or hard times that I could have done without. But I try to see them as something that fades into the background instead of the center of my focus. This past year, as a whole, seemed pretty fucking great and I couldn't be more excited for this year - the year I turn 31. Hmm, seems like I might have just outgrown 27 after all.
Do you have an age you wish you could go back to or have you learned to grow into each new year?